I want to be easy-going. I want to roll with it. I want to be someone who believes in the visions of others and helps make those visions happen. OK, so maybe the last “I want” isn’t exactly on the same level as the first two, but that does not make me want it any less. Or maybe they are more connected than I first thought?
With respect to the first two – sometimes I am easy-going and sometimes I do roll with it. But generally, I don’t do either of those behaviours enough (certainly, Ty would likely not describe me as easy-going and / or able to roll with it). When things are going sideways for me and I feel that incredibly frustrating feeling starting to spread through my chest (is that you Stress? Is that how you physically manifest yourself? I suspect that it is you lurking around in there, but I haven’t quite figured out how to trump you yet) I do know that the ensuing period of time is not necessarily going to be fun for me, or for Ty (oh Ty, it's always you who bears the brunt. You know I want it to be different!).
But I try. And I will continue to try to because I desperately want to be that woman who is effortlessly cruising through life (or maybe it’s just that she appears that way? Damn her and her perfect hair and outfit!).
And when the girl said, “As part of my goal to go to all fifty states by the time I’m thirty, I want to go to North Dakota to run my first half-marathon,” her mother said “I guess I should do it, too.” And this from a non-runner!
This is the woman I aspire to be. Although I am not a mother, I wish to model myself after this mother, who clearly is rollin’ with it every single day.
Word.
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Lots of pictures and announcements coming your way! Will post tonight when I get home because that is where my camera is!